Terrified.

I had a scary dream the other night. I don't want her to know that I had it because she may use it against me. I dreamt that she came back again, and he looked at her with the gaze he saves for only me. I dreamt that she put her arms around his neck and held him like I do.
She makes me cry in my sleep and toss, turn, shake until I wake up and sit, tears streaming down my face. I love him so much and losing him scares me so badly. Why wont she let me sleep peacefully? Without being so...terrified?