NOTICE: I just realized that most of the stuff I post on here is angsty, so I'm just going to put it all in Poetry...
The gravity of this situation
You don't write me notes or poetry
But I guess you do nice things for me
Yet when you go there'll just be memory
I'll look around but there's nothing to see
I want to see just what our lives can be
With you around I'm always so happy
But when you go I lose my levity
And everything becomes depravity
I've dug a hole that's slowly swallowed me
I sit alone at night and drink my tea
And think back on the summers lazily
I'm being pushed from you by gravity
And if it's possible someday maybe
We can be together properly
But for tonight I just want some mercy
I'll climb back out if only slowly
But I guess you do nice things for me
Yet when you go there'll just be memory
I'll look around but there's nothing to see
I want to see just what our lives can be
With you around I'm always so happy
But when you go I lose my levity
And everything becomes depravity
I've dug a hole that's slowly swallowed me
I sit alone at night and drink my tea
And think back on the summers lazily
I'm being pushed from you by gravity
And if it's possible someday maybe
We can be together properly
But for tonight I just want some mercy
I'll climb back out if only slowly
Past Affairs in the Night
I dug up a love affair from long ago
At least two years buried in dust
Asleep at the bottom of a jewelry box
Still flaked in remnants of us
I dug up a nightmare from years ago
One I tried to forget that I'd had
No matter how I try to free myself
It will always find a way back
The feeling I knew in my veins that night
The rushing of blood in my ears
The feeling of cool metal kissing me
The salty remains of my tears
I dug up a love affair from long ago
Hidden beneath an old poem
Waiting for me like he always is
Wishing for me to come home
I dug up a nightmare from years ago
One that sleeps under my bed
Calling for me to seek blood again
Hoping to find me an end
The feeling I knew in my veins that night
The blood leaking out of my arm
I don't want to be an addict again
I don't want to need to self-harm
At least two years buried in dust
Asleep at the bottom of a jewelry box
Still flaked in remnants of us
I dug up a nightmare from years ago
One I tried to forget that I'd had
No matter how I try to free myself
It will always find a way back
The feeling I knew in my veins that night
The rushing of blood in my ears
The feeling of cool metal kissing me
The salty remains of my tears
I dug up a love affair from long ago
Hidden beneath an old poem
Waiting for me like he always is
Wishing for me to come home
I dug up a nightmare from years ago
One that sleeps under my bed
Calling for me to seek blood again
Hoping to find me an end
The feeling I knew in my veins that night
The blood leaking out of my arm
I don't want to be an addict again
I don't want to need to self-harm
Haha Hate
It's not that we weren't friends
It's not like we didn't get along
You and I were totally fine
Nothing at all was wrong
And no matter what I say
And no matter what I do
I somehow can't manage
To get rid of stupid you
I haha hate you
Haha haha
I haha hate you
It's not like we didn't get along
You and I were totally fine
Nothing at all was wrong
And no matter what I say
And no matter what I do
I somehow can't manage
To get rid of stupid you
I haha hate you
Haha haha
I haha hate you
Troy
A face that launched a thousand ships
But sank them all with sabotage
Is it for the compliments or
promises of love?
A smile or penny for my thoughts
Though I admit they're rather dark
Perhaps a light or lantern's glow
to guide me from above?
The burning city lights the sky
A cry from dying Athens falls
Oh fairest lady of them all,
have you changed your heart?
So many sighs fill misty air
From all your many lover's mouths
Shall heroes step onto home ground
without a war to start?
But sank them all with sabotage
Is it for the compliments or
promises of love?
A smile or penny for my thoughts
Though I admit they're rather dark
Perhaps a light or lantern's glow
to guide me from above?
The burning city lights the sky
A cry from dying Athens falls
Oh fairest lady of them all,
have you changed your heart?
So many sighs fill misty air
From all your many lover's mouths
Shall heroes step onto home ground
without a war to start?
Gr.
I'm putting my foot down right now
Just so you already know
You can't have him back again
Just pack up your things and go
He's mine and he will be always
You can't have another chance
I'm going to be his baby
You had your time to dance
So don't even try
Go ahead and cry
Maybe even lie
But give up, he's mine
Don't lie to my face like always
Please don't even waste your time
He saw what you're really made of
He doesn't like girls who lie
So as we walk to our sunset
And leave you alone behind
I'm his and I make him happy
Try to keep that thought in mind
So don't even try
Go ahead and cry
Maybe even lie
But give up, he's mine
Just so you already know
You can't have him back again
Just pack up your things and go
He's mine and he will be always
You can't have another chance
I'm going to be his baby
You had your time to dance
So don't even try
Go ahead and cry
Maybe even lie
But give up, he's mine
Don't lie to my face like always
Please don't even waste your time
He saw what you're really made of
He doesn't like girls who lie
So as we walk to our sunset
And leave you alone behind
I'm his and I make him happy
Try to keep that thought in mind
So don't even try
Go ahead and cry
Maybe even lie
But give up, he's mine
Don't go.
I'm not sure what I am anymore.
Not really sure who...
I just don't know.
I'm really scared.
I'm scared that I'll be the next one
that he says goodbye to.
I don't want him to leave!
It's been almost a year now.
I can't be without him, really.
I mean...I could...I'm just selfish.
I need him.
He's warm. He is safety.
I don't want him to go...
Not really sure who...
I just don't know.
I'm really scared.
I'm scared that I'll be the next one
that he says goodbye to.
I don't want him to leave!
It's been almost a year now.
I can't be without him, really.
I mean...I could...I'm just selfish.
I need him.
He's warm. He is safety.
I don't want him to go...
Shut Up
Shut up.
Please.
It's all I'm asking.
Because I'm mad
You make me
Angry.
Shut up!
I love him,
And I am
Sick
Of you criticizing him.
Stop!
Aren't you supposed
To love him too?
Well?
So, shut up!
He pays bills.
Don't even start
With your whining and complaining
That he doesn't spend
Enough time with you.
Respect goes both ways.
Give
In order to
Receive.
Like his trust,
His love,
Which I claim.
So if you are to him
What you say,
Shut up.
You say things,
Rude things,
All the time.
Picking, always,
On him.
He's a good provider.
For him,
For your family,
Someday a family
Of his very own.
So please,
For me,
For him,
Shut up.
Please.
It's all I'm asking.
Because I'm mad
You make me
Angry.
Shut up!
I love him,
And I am
Sick
Of you criticizing him.
Stop!
Aren't you supposed
To love him too?
Well?
So, shut up!
He pays bills.
Don't even start
With your whining and complaining
That he doesn't spend
Enough time with you.
Respect goes both ways.
Give
In order to
Receive.
Like his trust,
His love,
Which I claim.
So if you are to him
What you say,
Shut up.
You say things,
Rude things,
All the time.
Picking, always,
On him.
He's a good provider.
For him,
For your family,
Someday a family
Of his very own.
So please,
For me,
For him,
Shut up.
Let it go.
I'm really none of your business.
Not your problem.
Definitely not your friend!
I don't understand.
Why?
Why are you mad?
What did I do to you?
You got the guy in the end,
So leave me alone.
I don't need either of you,
Not anymore, thank you.
So feel free to get lost.
Please?
Just get out of here and let me be.
I'm happy.
I'm fine and so are you.
Stop glaring at me in class.
I'm not your problem.
I'm NOT your friend.
Let it go.
Not your problem.
Definitely not your friend!
I don't understand.
Why?
Why are you mad?
What did I do to you?
You got the guy in the end,
So leave me alone.
I don't need either of you,
Not anymore, thank you.
So feel free to get lost.
Please?
Just get out of here and let me be.
I'm happy.
I'm fine and so are you.
Stop glaring at me in class.
I'm not your problem.
I'm NOT your friend.
Let it go.
I had a dream in the car last night...
We were in the backseat of my Daddy's car
I was laying next to you asleep
Something came and haunted my dreams
She took you once again away from me
And she taunted me and said I could see you
But never again would you love me
And I tossed and turned when you stepped from the dark
Looking at me with a blank stare
And I wanted you to know that I loved you more
Than I could ever love anything else at all
She taunted me and said goodbye
Taking your hand to walk away once again
But then you did something surprising
Was my face giving it away to you on the outside?
Because suddenly your lips were warm on mine
And the dream was gone and you were there
Gazing down at me with sleepy eyes
And once again my broken world was right
I was laying next to you asleep
Something came and haunted my dreams
She took you once again away from me
And she taunted me and said I could see you
But never again would you love me
And I tossed and turned when you stepped from the dark
Looking at me with a blank stare
And I wanted you to know that I loved you more
Than I could ever love anything else at all
She taunted me and said goodbye
Taking your hand to walk away once again
But then you did something surprising
Was my face giving it away to you on the outside?
Because suddenly your lips were warm on mine
And the dream was gone and you were there
Gazing down at me with sleepy eyes
And once again my broken world was right
Not Really Sorry
He tells me everything I ask about
Honestly
And I love him so much for it
But you! You liar!
I want to burn the whole world!
The anger you fill me with,
The hatred burning so deep!
But is it really hatred?
I'm pretty sure it's just jealousy
That you did something so...
I'm not jealous of what you did.
Jealous of what you took, more like.
And still I want the world to see
How much he means!
What did he do to you
To make you hate us so much?
He told you what he could to keep you,
But were you worth any of it?
No!
Now I get to be his happily ever after
And you...
I don't hate you.
I pity you.
You lost so much...and here I am
Happy with it.
I'm sorry.
But not really.
Honestly
And I love him so much for it
But you! You liar!
I want to burn the whole world!
The anger you fill me with,
The hatred burning so deep!
But is it really hatred?
I'm pretty sure it's just jealousy
That you did something so...
I'm not jealous of what you did.
Jealous of what you took, more like.
And still I want the world to see
How much he means!
What did he do to you
To make you hate us so much?
He told you what he could to keep you,
But were you worth any of it?
No!
Now I get to be his happily ever after
And you...
I don't hate you.
I pity you.
You lost so much...and here I am
Happy with it.
I'm sorry.
But not really.
Go Away
You're in my nightmares
In my head
I wake up screaming
In my bed
There's no one like you
That's for sure
You hurt him now
You're back for more
But what have I done
Other than
Befriended you
I held your hand
You told me that
You didn't care
But wore more makeup
Did your hair
I'm sick of lies
And things you say
I'm asking nicely
Go away
In my head
I wake up screaming
In my bed
There's no one like you
That's for sure
You hurt him now
You're back for more
But what have I done
Other than
Befriended you
I held your hand
You told me that
You didn't care
But wore more makeup
Did your hair
I'm sick of lies
And things you say
I'm asking nicely
Go away
Frozen
You burn with cruel intensity
Just like a frozen sun
You keep your victims close to you
So close they cannot run
I thought just like the rest of them
That you would be a friend
But I was late to realize
All good things have to end
You have a sort of solitude
That keeps you safe from harm
Yet there's something about you
That holds a certain charm
I can't feel bad for you again
After the stories I
Have heard from people close to you
You let your feelings die
Just like a frozen sun
You keep your victims close to you
So close they cannot run
I thought just like the rest of them
That you would be a friend
But I was late to realize
All good things have to end
You have a sort of solitude
That keeps you safe from harm
Yet there's something about you
That holds a certain charm
I can't feel bad for you again
After the stories I
Have heard from people close to you
You let your feelings die
My Broken Angel
He's backed up against a wall
So very afraid of the fall
Because his broken wings
Won't be any help at all
His eyes are full of fear
And as she saunters near
He curls into himself
Afraid of what he'll hear
She tells him of his sin
That Hell is closing in
He is too weak to run
With newly broken skin
He tries so hard to flee
But she won't let him be
With no one to turn to
His soul can't be free
Slowly raises his hands
Against her commands
And though he is wounded
My broken angel stands
So very afraid of the fall
Because his broken wings
Won't be any help at all
His eyes are full of fear
And as she saunters near
He curls into himself
Afraid of what he'll hear
She tells him of his sin
That Hell is closing in
He is too weak to run
With newly broken skin
He tries so hard to flee
But she won't let him be
With no one to turn to
His soul can't be free
Slowly raises his hands
Against her commands
And though he is wounded
My broken angel stands